A few days ago my last post, “Outed,” received a comment that read like a blog post itself. Odara is someone I met through the machinima community, the producer of an outstanding new series called “Guardian Angel.” She’s a teacher by profession, a wife and mother and inspiring presence on the Web. I thought it fitting to move her comment to the main blog, into a bit of spotlight, where hopefully it will be read and enjoyed by many others.
Thank you, Odara!
Out Of The Closet
How it happened I don’t know. I told a male teacher about my machinima hobby and he says to me, “You have two children, how do you get time to do that?” Now, I would like to punch him but then, I felt ashamed. I suddenly saw myself as an immature, time-wasting, neglectful mother, since I couldn’t possibly have two children and still find time to engage in Sims machinima. He was the first and only person outside of my immediate family to know and what a response. (Oh let me at him! Let me at him!)
Yet, I’m not an immature, time-wasting, neglectful mother. I’m still very focused and good at my job, my IQ hasn’t dropped. On the contrary, my creativity is enhanced, my social network has grown, I’ve learned from others and have helped others. So I find time to pursue a hobby – what’s wrong with that? Why blame me for having advanced time-management skills?
My problem, though, is having to explain to most people what machinima is and once the word “game” comes up, then that’s it. They won’t listen any more. Sigh. I still haven’t reached the stage of fully coming out of the closet. But the audience is changing. It is widening. We’re breaking ground just as former directors did, just in a different way. We’re blazing another trail. I imagine one day our grandchildren would come to us for movie making advice while their parents sit and wonder what they missed.